so this is where it started
Back when I hated everything about myself.
I feel ashamed to admit that I hated my body and the color of my skin.
Some days people made me feel like I was worthless just because I was darkskin. Some days I felt like I didn’t want to be here anymore. I just wanted to end it all. To feel like you don’t even want to exist is a horrible feeling and I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy.
To be called anorexic when you know you eat 10 times a day….its torture.
I was so angry with the world and hated myself for not looking like the other girls in school. I wanted to be anyone but myself.
To be made fun of because of your clothing is something anyone can change.
To be made fun of because of your skin color and because of your body type hits you deep down inside. You can’t just put on weight and you can’t change the color of your skin. I don’t remember feeling pretty or like a person. I always felt like I was just existing. Just living day to day. UGLY was the only thing I saw when I looked in the mirror. I didn’t understand why I had to look the way that I did.
I’m so proud of myself for not giving up on ME. I’m so proud of who I have become and I’m so IN LOVE with my body and the color of my skin.
It feels strange being bold and confident since I felt so ugly and weak for so long. God has changed me so much. He’s blessed me and gave me the confidence I always needed. I’ve changed on the outside but on the inside I’m still that girl in that old photo. I’m still MACEE x3